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June 9th, 2010 (09:01 am)

 


Two years of planning have come to fruition in the form of a lovely baby girl.  During the long nights, when she screams from gas or gnaws my nipple, when the diapers have overflowed or my shirt is soaked, again, with a kind thought, when I’m sticky and disheveled but she will not sleep so I can take a shower – at those times, I try to recall the anticipation.

It worked the first time we tried, after nine years of trying not to.  The decision itself was scary enough, now it was actually happening.  I remember her moving for the first time, the butterfly flutter.  Her later movements were more curious; was that an arm or a leg?  Which way is her head pointing?  Are those kicks or hiccups?  Her gender was a mystery, as was the molding of her face, a mixture of Sean and my features.  Would the baby be healthy?  What should we name him or her?  Are we ready, have we done all we can?

Now I watch her sleep in fascination.  Her snores and sleep murmurs I follow in rapt attention.  She’s breathing.  She’s beautiful.  I got to take her home, and now I get to take her anywhere.  Everywhere.  She rests in my arms as if it were heaven, and in a way I suppose it is.  Five weeks since her birth, and it will always feel like yesterday.


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Posted by: Mink Staccato (minkstaccato)
Posted at: June 16th, 2010 02:14 am (UTC)

Man, life is a damn crazy thing. Congratulations, L. You'll make a wonderful mother. I'm certain.

Posted by: Liora (celtlass)
Posted at: August 10th, 2010 06:29 pm (UTC)

Coming from you, with your stance on population growth, I take that as a high compliment. Thank you, S. I'm enjoying the surprises and the challenge of Motherhood.

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